the truth about chubby

so my blog is called confessions of a chubby girl for a reason
1. im chubby
2. these are my confessions

so i wanted to get real for a minute about why i am the way i am ... ever notice how every damn chubby girl has a reason "i am big boned," " i have a hormone problem," "i dont eat enough," "i have bad genetics," ... the list goes on and on and on ...i too have been guilty of using excuses to justify why im chubby ... so here you go, here is the TRUTH

confession #2 -- i am chubby because i choose to eat the wrong foods and in the wrong portion sizes ...

confession #3 -- i hate the word "diet" and i have NEVER successfully stuck to one ... first let me point out : DIET and DIE -- die is the first three letters of the word diet, neither of which sound like a good time to me -- how can i deny myself food .. even Maslows' heriarchy of needs has food as the bare essential to a human ....everywhere i look i see people eating and enjoying food ... doesn't seem like they are too worried about an extra piece of bread or a little extra dressing on their salad ... why should i???

it seems like whenever i try to go on a "diet" food becomes my enemy ...it haunts me .. all of a sudden im dreaming of skittles pouring down upon me like a rainy day -- clouds in the sky remind me of marshmellows and the idea of bbq a good steak and potatoe wont go away ..

this chuby girl is coming clean NOW: yes i work out a lot and yes i am incredibly aware of the food that i put into my body .. that being said, i have NEVER really fully 100% committed myself to changing my bad habbits! this chubby girl is chubby because she chose to be ... i chose the bag of candy over self control! my girlfriends try to make it seem so easy .. just stop eating candy and you'll see a difference .. thats like telling an alcoholic to just stop drinking and see how much better they feel .. it doesn't work like that ... im coming to realize that sweets are my addiction ... and in order to battle and conquer the first step is coming clean!!!